We all love Deadend, and if you say you don’t, you’re a liar. I saw you drooling at the bustop, in the heat as I arrived. I reached over to give you my water and you took it, looking feverishly at me while I untied you from your ropes. I gave you 50 bucks and set you on your way. Later I saw you in Lulu’s drinking, smoking and with new clothes and a job. If they say they left…they are liars, cause everyone in Deadend knows you never really leave. That bus brings you back every time. You stand there and cry, but you come crawling back like a meth and coke addiction. You can beg and plead all you want, but you know you need it. It’s a drug, insatiable, stimulating, ravishing you from the inside and you are shoved down on your back forced to endure its brutal touch. You want it. Can’t escape it. Submit.

Personally I don’t know about you all, I have tried to leave 3 times. I cant. I just cant. The darkness and smell of the night lures me back like a lover in heat and I need to be sated by the city.

Which brings me to another point. An intolerable one. In order to maintain a perfect seduction, a few issues need to be addressed. So here I am and I’m going to be rather blunt about it.

Lately and I’m not sure weather it’s the seasons but when I go into Deadend, I see women waiting by the side of the road as well as men. I took the time a few times to try to rp with a few men thinking I might expand my horizons but now I’m damn mad. A lot of us in Deadend work to bring good roleplays to the sim and we have titles and characters and alter egos and we get into it. Several people I see are excellent players and I even learned from a few of the best. I cannot name names or else I would. I have accustomized to using alts that even roleplay with each other and call each other and even maintain affairs with each other in DE as well as other sims. It is a lot of work to maintain a place elsewhere and also engage in roleplay in several places and one being my main DE. So why am I mad??? I’ll tell you.

Its like this. Expanding into your dark side and your seductive side, I want you to need me, feel me, understand me. When someone only is here to fuck, its rude. They don’t understand roleplay, they don’t know how to roleplay, its disappointing. Many a men have come to DE to screw women, not respecting roleplay limits, or the roleplay. Or if they do and don’t care, they just poof! Im so sick of men thinking this is a sex sim where you just get off and run. They have sims for that, and much less ..are members of Deadend . I don’t know how but last time I checked, a profile said “I love to rp” that was the extent of a profile. Ummmm did I miss something? No, it was more like “I love to fuck, and ignore rp and limits and do what I want” if that’s the case, put that down and be on your way. I’m not interested in being in DE with people who cant halfway rp. If they cant rp and are only interested in screwing, why are you here? Seriously. It makes me mad when people work on a roleplay and have it in their minds, and want others to react, and it falls on the floor. Or the people who roleplay and simply don’t acknowledge your replies, and roleplay what they want.

Im not sure how to fix this, what to say to mods. Only when para or min para roleplay is what we want or we are used to. Even I make mistakes trying to react to several people at one time. Maybe have mods come around and observe more, people get goodies for good RP, tighter rules in the application process? I don’t have a clue. I don’t even know if anyone will agree with me on this. It’s just my point of view.

A few of my experiences in DE have been less than thrilling, some have been perfect and I must apologize for my first rp screwup fight. My first - I feel I screwed up. I know your saying “ geez no big deal”. Well, it was important to me to be the best I can be.

I live through my writing. I am many forms of me. Creative, sensuous, brutal, a self indulgent child. I am a killer, a wild self destructive woman, the predator in the dark, a beautiful whore with kajira- like moves, a brutal crime boss who is seriously crazy. In SL I can be anything and everything. I push my limits and I define what they are. I am me. I am a lover of my roleplay. I am not a whore you sleep with. You sleep with my words and your seduced by them. I speak them as I was a femme fatale of the 60’s. sultry and with lush blond hair as my mouth was wrapped around a cigarette. I am the drug to my words. Respect me, love me, adore me.