Small precise letters scrawl across the page with Kenji in places where English can't accurately translate the emotions.

What is happening to me? I came to this city with such excitement. A chance to leave my past behind and live happy with my sister Genna. Where is she? Vanished, just like her friend Nikol.

It all started with Troy. I miss him so much it hurts. I seem to live now in pain. Why did he cheat on me? He said he loved me. But he also distracted me from finding Genna. Lili knew Nikol! My closest friend in this place and she turns out to be the link I had searched for. Now we are not talking.

I've had so many people suddenly claiming they want to protect me. That's what Troy said before... I just can't tell who to trust anymore. This man Sao? He wants to give me money to invest into security, but I think he has a hidden agenda. Alina's angry with me for accepting Sao's money. Apparently I told her she could provide security. She couldn't have been planning to do it for free? Maybe I can hire her people for it. Would that make her happy? Then this woman Athena. I am not clear what she wants. She keeps sending for me and says she want's to protect me. She has a temper though and hides her motives.

Last there is my sweet Arya. She's the only one that I truly believe when she says she wants to protect me. She eases my pain, even if only a little. But she is not as tough as she tries to act. I only hope she does not get herself hurt trying to protect me.

What scares me most though are the blackouts. I seem to find myself at home with injuries I don't remember getting. What am I doing at night? How do I have no memory of my own actions? I'm so afraid that I am losing myself.