I'm sure this will come as a shock to some, other's not so much but, i've decided once and for all to pull the plug on my DE existence, no drama, no fuss, not even a goodbye RP. The last few days i've not been into the sim, barely in SL really. It's something i've thought about, mulled over for a long time. Even as i've been working on the DEPD again and it's really, that work and the results of it that put a bearing on my decision.

Dead End was once something and now... it's something else. I don't feel like I have a place here anymore, not one that will make me happy anyway. The sim has moved on and all that i've done to help improve things have largely fallen on deaf ears (mostly referring to the DEPD). I have to make a few things clear, things I either haven't for a while or have never said openly. There's many things i don't agree with in DE any more.

The auto application systems, they work fine for mass invites but make a mess of the RP and communication between the faction and service leads. Is a big bone of contention for me but i can see why it's important to some people.

The imagination, creativity and will to be involved has died. Not true of every last player on sim, there's some great players on sim but mostly they go unheard. The RP now is most overwhelmingly about... getting from one fight to the next.

I don't feel like there's much wish from the staff to be involved in anything more than booting griefers.

I personally feel like and all most certainly know that some players have been, if not directly, certainly indirectly, running off players from the sim and I can't be a party to that, when it's going on mostly unchecked. The main problem with this is the culture of non-reporting of problems or just a general lack of communication on sim, it's a sim -wide problem that's been present for as long as i've been back at least.

I could have taken this to senior admins or the owner but i've been given the distinct impression that i'll get the brush off and that "As long as no one's breaking the rules...." everything's fine by one or more persons i've tried to talk with. Which was pretty much the situation i remember when DE really suffered from some really bad choice of players a long while ago. To be honest I could have left this post and still pursued after finding ways around the issues i see but i can't help but feel these are issues only i and maybe a few people see and if the majority of the sim is happy then really i'm just spitting into the wind and i don't want to be seen as someone protesting against what DE and it's people want. I feel a little self-alienated from most people and I promised myself never to do that but i really can't see myself RPing with certain people the general things they want to RP.

Either way, however you take this, i mean no offence. I just want to give tangible reasons for leaving, I'm starting something new in my RL soon and it's a good excuse to put SL to one side for an extended period of time and if i'm honest having to put DE to one side feels more like a release than a burden.

~Lucy