(writing looks like that of a child, she is still learning to read and write well so keeping a diary is like practice for her grammer mistakes are there on purpose because she can't write well))

I have been around here for while now, still learning writing, real father never let me go to school. Said i bad, real mothers death my fault when she had me. I ran to this city, away from bad people. Don't remember much got into trouble with police alot, they bad people too. Do not like bad people.

New father took me down into the bad room, first met him when he wanted to make me happy, cannot be happy, happy not here anymore. But try be happy for father, have to make happy, love father.

I do not like when hurts me, try be good so do not hurt me. Sad when father hurts me. Cell in the basement always cold, said im meat. Father punishes me when upset with me, must keep father happy, pretend to be happy. If hurting me makes father happy he can do it, he loves me, he does love me, he has to love me.

Why do people seem weird around me though, father not bad, collar not bad. Said shows im protected, that i am loved. Collar cannot come off, locked collar, sometimes naughty collar but normal collar when out. Coffee good when out. Does fucking me mean love too?.

Dion not real father, real father dead, dead by me. Father calls me monster, said i always been monster, why can not remember being monster. Father loves me, he does.

Love Alice, Alice Lambert. Father love alice. Alice love Father. Said cannot call Father master when out so master is father.

Getting better at writing, writing bad still but writing try be better. Father happy if writing better.

Have to go do chores he happy if do all chores. Please let be all happy. Christmas coming soon, never had christmas, really

Hope father let have christmas, make alice happy if christmas comes.