It has been over a year since she has been in Dead End. A lot has happened in that time. It is only now, as she goes through another stressful period, that she begin this diary. It is not so much stress but a struggle as to what she wants out of life; who she is and who she wants to be

Before being exiled to America she had been groomed by her mother- a successful German business woman, to be a sex goddess. To some degree she had come to accept her place in life. Then she fell in love with a police woman-Crystal. The woman introduced her to the possibilty that she could leave that life. Then her mother found out about them. She arranged for Crystal to be reassigned. Then she was killed. She was exiled to America.

She ended up in Dead End. The first night in the red light area of Dead End she learned that a man and a woman already had control of the red light area and just about everything that happened. Her first mistake was crossing a man who ran Spunks and kept an eye on Crimson Avenue. To mend fences with the man and learn the American sex trade, she went to work at Spunk's. The next day she made her second mistake when she challenged the woman mistreating a woman on Crimson Avenue. One day she was called to the massage parlor where she learned the woman's name-Lys. From that day on she worked for Lys.

It was through Lys that she was introduced to the family that Lys and her wife put together-Black Mambas. The family even included a father figure that she never had.

She was drawn into her first assignment as a Mambas. The asignement involved her babysitting Dead End's female ADA, Then came her promotion to Fang. Her first assignment as a Fang was to break a police woman that she had developed a relationship with. Break her until she would become the Mambas's play toy. It was hard but after three says she seemed to have pulled it off. However, after being set free, the police woman sought out all the members of the family except her as she went into hiding for a week fearing retribution from the family. After a couple of weeks her police woman friend disappeared.

She had been masking her feelings so long that she felt that she no longer knew what she felt for sure.