I find myself lost after 5 days living on the streets, this assignment is starting to get to me. Michele has been raped and I can't even contact her to know how she's doing, haven't heard from Ming an over 24 hours. The city seems dead, scared to talk about these M9L cult. I had a good first day, as it seems this cult has a strong hidden agenda. They hide behind bogus religious ideas to perform scientifical experiments on their victims, something with celluar therapy I have learned from a kid named Xander. Haven't met anyone who was able to confirm this or where Xander got this information.

I'm starting to think that the only way to continue this assignment would be infiltrating the inner cult itself. Michele has been holding off this idea, the girl's obviously scared. It's cute, really... how she cares for me. She's a bitch in every sense of the word, but merely a defensive mechanism for her. Her pride won't allow her to talk about what happened to her, maybe she will with me... But then again, I can't meet her, can't see her as long as I'm working this job.

I've lost track of time, I'm starting to lose who I really am. I'm living my cover story, Aisha's still in here somewhere... I know that, but it feels like for now I actually am Alice. I only have one wish... be with Ming again, hold her, kiss her, feel her warmth and love. I'm lost today and I don't know what to do.

** This note has been burned soon as it has been written **